*♥My Colorful Life♥*

aun..,!bangag na naman ako ngayong araw.,!shockx.,!buti di na kami napagalitan,auz na din aq sa permanent sitting arrangement nmin at least hindi ko na kasama si sarah or what i mean hindi ko na katabi kasi nakakasama ko nmn siya every recess and lunch,,b.i siya sakin,wah.,!jowkx lang acctually si buen ang b.i dahil nman talaga kay buen kung bakit kami napagalitan hays.,!i want some space..ung tahimik talaga ako…..

I can say na auz na ako sa sitting arrangement namin pero i can say also nah im not contented kasi naman eh.,yung mga katabi ko si kagaoan right,then si earl sa left.pero not accutually katabi ko si earl.kasi my space talaga na malaki…naiilang kasi ako..ay aun.,!bday pala niya..anu nmn haha.,!wla lng.,!wla na akong malagay……shssssss.

ano bang ginawa namin ngayong araw??.,wait lng aalalahanin ko muna:)

aun.muntikan na naman akong malate sa flag ceremony,badtrip talaga yung walang kwentang school namin 6:30 na nga ako umalis dito sa house nmin tapos muntikan pa akong malate anu kaya yun.tapos muntikan pa akong msarahan ng gate hayss.

ahm.during our rhgp.ahm rhgp ba??values na siguro,discuss lang..and anu pa ba??answer2x.,then since birthday ni earl,kinantahan nila ng heippy lechon…lols j.k bstah lam niyo na yun i dont want to put the title of the song here eh.!bxtah ung kinaknta pra sa mga my bertdeii..badtrip c xtian…..uhmp.,kelan kea mangyayari na hindi ako mababadtrip sa knya or kelan kea mangyayari na isang arw ndi ako maiinis…..argh.,kasi nmn sino ba nmn ndi maiinis,,habang kinakantahan nila c earl,,,binabanggit niya name ko,,,damn it….ang lakas ng trip tas ung gulaman nmn na yun nakisali.,shit.,!ayw ko na nga na maiconnect aq sa sinoman dyn.kht pa girl pa yn hays.,lalo na sa lalaki noh.,parang nagmumukha akong flirt..what i mean parang balajadia style gnun.,ayw ko nah tlga,,nakakasawa nah.,lalo na syempre pag kay zai and earl hndi nmn sa guilty ako ayw ko lng,even though totoo ayw q tlga..naiilang ako pag nacoconnect aq sa ibang tao,mamya baka kusa ko nlng silang iwasan bcoz of that eh.hayss.,!!

then filipino time.. anu bng ginawa nmin dun.,!!nagdiscuss lng nmn c ma’am reconsal eh.,un lng…..uhm sa science.review then quiz lng…..!!and recess nah.,kumain syempre yay.,!

uhm nxt nah math.,!hayss..boring na boring ako..kasi nmn ung mga group mates ko most of them deuteronomy ay not most of them lht pala cla..ako lng nga numbers sa group nah un kaya o.p na o.p ako.taz hindi pa sila marunong magseryoso.prng lht ng bgy laruan lng sa kanila hayss.,!gxto ko nah nga magseryoso sa study ko and gusto ko nah nga umayos ako eh prng balik lng nung grade 6 aq..ms maauz ung grades ko.,!pero prng they try to pull me down,kasi nga group mates ko sila kaya aun prng naiinfluence din ako na hndi gumawa ng activity,,hai naku.,!

then next mape acctually,knina wla akong sa mood kaya aun medyo thimik me and medyo sleepy kasi ako nung time na un,,pag music subject nmin grabe super kinakabahan ako kasi bumubunot kung sinong kakanta sa harapan taz 2 pa ung kakanta kaya nakakanervous tlga eh ung index q pah color pink,,nagiisang color pink.hayss.,taz aun nagdiscuss lng acctually hndi nmn discuss ble prng review lng taz my seatwork..grabe sa sobrang kabangagan ko nung pagpass ko nung notebook ko kala ko sbi ni sir godwin,idistribute ko ung dalawang notebook,taz binigay ko kay ej and edmar,taz binalik ni ej and edmar then sbi ni sir pinapabukas dw niya hahah.,!lolx adict super bangag akooo.,!

LUNCH TIME..nakakatamad tlga kumain pag lunch hayss.,!!!masarap ung baon ko un nga lang wla talaga akong gana kumain..

English aun discuss taz answer lng.,taz my shortquiz lng.,!!Then T.L.E time shockx!!grabeh!!!i acctually agree sa sinabi ni ma’am lazarte,topic kasi nmin about adolescence period..then kasama dun yung INLOVE WITH LOVE and about CRUSHES also..napaliwanag naman mabuti ni ma’am lazarte yun,,and kung ano yung kapalit or consequence nung bagay na yun.and kung gaano kapainful yung pwedeng mangyari kapag pumasok kah na sa stage na yun.i acctually agree kasi naexperience ko na yun eh and its really painful talaga.then inexplain din ni ma’am na huwag muna masyadong magexpect kasi sometimes sa sobrang obsess mo sa kanya parang nagfafantacy kah na din or nagddream ka na din na like ka nung guy na yun,pinipilit mong paniwalain yung sarili mo kasi nga likes mo siya.

Then..inexplain din ni maam na yung boys sometimes paasa lang i acctually agree..ung tipong papahulugin nila yung loob mo kunyari magpapakita ng motibo nah likes ka nila then kapag totally nafall kah nah sa kanila bago ka nila iiwanan hays.,!!naexperience ko na din ito eh.,!in other words ginawa ka lang nilang laruan or pampalipas oras nila.,ikw rin c tanga hnyaan mong gwin un,hays.prng nagsstart na akong maging manhater kasi nmn eh.;,!wlang ginawa ang mga boys kundi saktan and pagmukhaing tanga ang mga girls hayss.

A.P time aun buti nalang hindi na kami napagalitan sympre ndi na kami magkakatabi,pero i think kung magkakatabi kami napagalitan na naman kami..aun sulat2x lng and read2x lng..boring talaga a.p mas gxto ko pag si sir darwin yung mgtuturo..and ms naiintindihan ko then iba na kasi ung a.p ngaun english na kaya un medyo mahirap na madali..

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Ang pinakafavorite ko UWIAN time..syempre anu pa bang gagawin ko??syempre uuwi..aun kasabay ko si buen..badtrip ang tgl ko bago makasakay,pinilit kasi ako ni buen na pumunta sa puguan..kaya aun kumain siya and also me..hayss.grabe nakakamiss talaga yung mga close friends ko…prng dati lng sila yung kasama ko dun sa puguan na yun especially si lola ko (jonah) hayss.nakakamiss talaga sila..!!i wish some other time maulit uli yun.then nung naghahanap ako ng tricycle para makasakay nakita ko naman yung shrimpball.hayss.,!!yung pinakafavorite nmin kainin pag magkakasama kaming 4 sana maulit pa yun but siguro for now dapat ko nalng siguro itreasure yung unforgetabble memories na yun and be thankful because i met them.

Grabeh.,!!my gosh.,!!super ingay ko na pala,,, ngayon ko lang nahalata but well im so serious..grabe prang super laki ng pinagbago ko..and im so disapointed to my self.,bakit ganun??what happen??shockx.,!!,most behave ako dati pero now?prang ako na ung most talkative ng section nmin..i guess so.,nakakadisapoint talaga and nakakalungkot..haysz.,!anu ba yn.,maybe siguro kya lang ako maingay sympre ktbi ko knina c buen,she influence me naughtiness..hayss.nu ba yn nanisi pa ako eh ako nmn tlga ung may kasalanan.

Shockx.,!first time ko ung knina huh.,i dont know kung anu tawag dun…pero parang pingot yta un,i dont know what’s the exactly term 4 dat,pero prang hndi din pingot kc ndi nmn ung tenga ko un eh.,,ung hair ko lng.,actually,hndi mskit ung ginawa ni sir grospe,ang nakakalungkot lng dun,,nsobrahan na yta tlga ung pagkamaingay ko haysz..anu ba yn..then during our a.p subject napagalitan pa yata kami,i dont know kung kami yun.,haysz.,sabi ni sir fajilan maingay dw kmi,but well 3 lng nmn kmi npagalitan,si buen,sarah and me…uhmp….super nakakadisappoint talaga,gusto ko nah magbago.,,gusto ko na bumalik sa dating ako..ung tahimik lng,!haysz.,i thing sobrang kumulit na din ako,haysz.idk.bstah ang alam ko over limitation na yung mga ginagawa ko sa class…

Sabi ni Sir Fajilan may tumatawa daw samin,ewan ko lang kung sino,i’m not the one who’s laughing nmn eh kaya ndi ko alam kung sino,bsta alam ko 3 lng kami dun,kc 3 lng kaming napagalitan,shockx special mention pa yun ah.,!grabeh nmn un…..!and isa pa dun,parang 3 lng kmi nila buen  yung super ingay,si buen kc eh..,(nanisi pa dw c ako),but well,totoo nmn eh.,!si buen kc eh..,dinadaldal kami,,sinisipa niya yung upuan ni gulaman,and ung gulaman nmn na un,leche,he’s so very stupid.,sbi ni buen i’m the one dw na sumisipa,,and c gulaman nmn naniwla he’s a jerk.,ang layo ko kaya s knya.,tska o’cmn bkt q nmn xia ccpain.??edi pagcnpa q xia ung upuan niya pag tuluyang ncra edi ako pa ngbyd cmonsense nmn un,tska c buen kya ung nsa likod nya.ang talino nya pero ndi manlng gmagmt ng commonsense nya hays.,!pahamak tlga c buen..,,!!shishhhhhhhh.,sna macontrol ko pa ung kaingayan ko haysz,.,!!

grabeh!!ang boring ng

araw koh!!!!,shocks,!!

muntik pah aq malate sa flag ceremony knina

kc nmn eh.,!!ung orasan sa school nmin

super advance maybe 15 or 10 minutes advance

kya yn aq tlga kelangan magadjust ng oraz q hayss.,!!!

grabeh ang boring tlga ng araw q shocks.,!!!

hayzzz.,!anu ba yn,!kc nmn eh!!!!first subject pa lng nkipagplit na

c earl ng pwesto skin,!!kc nmn eh.,!!i thought panandalian lng

pro gosh.,!!hnggang uwian nagpalit kmi ng pwesto

anu ba yn,!wla nmn aqng mgwa,!!ndi q xia mahindian eh.,!

nakakahiya hahaha.,!(naks meron pa pla aq nun)

oh men,!c edward pa ung ktbi q anu b yn,!kc nmn eh!

pro hopefully tom. blik na aq sa original pwesto q hayss..,!

ang init sa pwesto ni earl eh.,!taz c edward pa ktbi q

magulo un eh.,!di nmn sa gnugulo nya aq,!bsta ayw q lng

there are certain things na hindi q maexplain bxtah ayw q

xiang ktbi,!pro auz nmn xia,d nmn nya aq pinagtitripan,

try nya lng tlga,!makakatikim ulit xia ng sampal haha.,!!!

baliw kc si earl,ndi kinakausp yn tuloy ayw xia ktbi ni edward

haha.,!!medyo my pagkasnob din kc si earl eh.,!!

damn it,!medyo nakakabadtrip c xtian kaunti lng nmn,!

ang baho kc nya eh,!tapoz hnhwkn pa nya ung bag koh

taz pag dumidikit xia,ung pawis nya yikes,!ang lagkit hayss.,!!

grabe ang malas ng araw q hmpt.,!taz tinapunan pah ni xtian

ung arm chair q syng tuloi cover nun,!hayz di bale

nah!,papalitan q nlng,!!auz na un,i undrstand,baboy kc xia eh

kya baboy din kumain,,uhm.,!!!hayz.,!ndi q maintindihan

sarili q,my mga time na naiilang aq kay earl,my mga time na

makapal mukha q,!anu b yn,!sna lgi nlng makapal mukha

q pagdating sa kanya,!sna hwg na aq mailang hays.,!

ang lakas kc mambara nun eh,,msyadong pilosopo hayss.,!!!

nakakainis tlga.,!!

badtrip na badtrip ako!

ang panget ng araw koh!

unang subject pa lng!

sinira nah ni sarah and pagigs ung araw koh eh!

damn it.,!!nakakapikon tlga,!

i tried na huwag mging pikon

pro ndi ko mapigilan.!

they are teasing me.,!

damn.,!auz na sana khit anong

iasar nila eh.,!pro ung

inaasar pa nila ung pinka weakness koh!!

they keep on teasing me and connecting me

to zai,!which is not good.,!syempre khit

papaano masakit pa din un..,!

and i know sarah knows that.

di nmn kc sila ung nakakafeel nun eh!

they dont even give consideration to me

ndi kc nila alam kung gaano kasakit

ung ginawa skin nung lalaking yun.,

and besides ayw ko ng kinoconnect

sa knya,!mmya iwasan na nmn aq nun.,

d rin nmn cla magssuffer nun.!

hays.,pro bkt nga ba aq affected?

ay ewan.,bsta nakakapikon,!

i dont take things seriously

pro pagdting s bagay na un

sobrang nagiging serious akoh!!!

hayss!!anu ba yn.,!!!nakakainis……!!!!!!

Well probably.,!today ahm.,regular class na nmin knina hanggang 3:30 kmi grabe mtgl but ok na din.,!well ahm anu ba haha.,!lols.,!im retarted.,!yay.,!haha.,!ahm during our values ay values ba?ahm.,rhgp pla mna i forgot eh!haha.,!ahmp,inarrange ung permanent sitting arrangement nmin,,medyo auz na din.,katabi ko si pagigs.,!pro ndi ako msyadong comfortable kc nsa harap ko c earl,!medyo naiilang lang aq,pro cguro auz na din un,pwede na pagtyagaan,haha.

anu ba yn.,!!!putol itong post koh!!!!! mhba dpt.,!nxt time nlng!!

what the heck.,!!anu bang ilalagay koh.,!Uhm.,lols.,wala akong maisip haha.,!ahmp.,!well today,half day lang kami i dont know why,!grabe boring na boring akoh.,!!ang layo kasi ni sarah eh.,!she’s the only one na sure kong kaclose koh dun!,ayw q ksing mkipagusp sa mga strangers haha.,!ang sama hndi nmn siguro stranger ahm i consider na din na part sila ng buhay koh.,!syempre 10 months ko din silang makakasama,!hays.,!medyo auz na ko sa upuan koh.,!medyo prang aus na din kahit papaanu ktbi c christian,nakakapanibago nga eh!,haha.,!ewan ko kng bkt aq naninibgo haha.,!kso the problem is ang baho niya,.,!yay.,!haha.,!lols.,ang sama ko!pero totoo nmn eh.,!whats wrong wid that ayt?haha.!sna di nya mabasa ito lols.,!ahm.,medyo badtrip lng ako kay edward kanina hmpt.,!badtrip tlga.,!bsta ay ewan.,!prng nakakabstos na kc xia eh.,!pslamat tlga xia,best friend xia ng demonyo na un.,kundi grabe nasampal koh na siya sa pambabastos niya skin.,!hays.,pro khit na gnun.,!auz na din.,!!bhla nah.,!

sa wakas.,!!dumating din ang raw na pinakahihintay koh!

hayss.,!well unfortunately,!sa wakas,pumasok na din ako sa school knina!

probably,!mix emotion ung nafefeel koh hays.,!kasi nmn eh.,!!!!!!

i’m happy bcoz syempre,after almost 2 months nkita koh ulit

ung mga dting classmates koh.,!pro nkakalungkot nga lng kc

syempre my mga lumipat,pro khit na lumipat cla life must go on pa din nmn,

bsta bahala na si batman kung anong mangyayari sa 2nd yr life koh.,

khit na cguro miserable,sna nmn mging exciting and fun,sa wakas

my maibablog na din akoh.,!!haha.,!and sa wakas 2nd yr na din akoh

sna enjoy ung mga classmates koh,medyo di ko pa kasi kilala yung iba

and ung iba di kmi close haha.,!prng c sarah lng yta ung pinaka

kaclose koh dun yays.,!sana lng wag nya ako iwan sa ere.,!

Aw No.,!vacation is over,back2 school na naman

well basically,i’m so really excited,sympre,new

classmate,new adventure,and of course madami

na naman akong malalagay dito sa blog koh haha.,!!

but kahit na medyo excited ako,medyo kinakabahan

pa rin ako syempre,natural lng un,tska,shocks,!wla

na ung mga close friends koh hays.,!panu na yun,

but maybe its time na siguro na dpt akong mging

independent haha.,!,and siguro need ko na ding

mging responsible..hays,,!!for sure nakakapanibago

kasi sanay ako nah nandyan ung mga close friends koh

taz itong 2nd yr life koh,,prang si xarah nlng ung pinaka

kaclose koh dun hays.,!!what am i going to do??hayss.,

wala na cguro akong mggwa kung hndi ang magprepare,

oh yeah.,!!!!i know na dn kng cnong mga classmates koh..

pro kaunti pa lng alm koh..,!and shocks.,nmn.!!classmate

koh pah c xtian.,\o’cmn,,ano n kyang mngyayari sa life koh

nun haha.,!!maggng miserable ulit haha!!!..

bahala na c batman haha.,!grabe ilang days nlng oh.,!!

pro auz na un.,!ms gugustuhin kong nsa school kesa sa

d2 s bahay.,medyo boring pro auz nah din.,!!hmpt.,,

aun.,!till my next blog,4 sure sa next blog koh

2nd yr nah aq haha.,!!!

Having Heart Broken is one of the hardest part in our life, we cannot tell when it’s going to happen but it will bound to happen. We will go through a lot of things during the process of the healing of broken heart. First process will be moving on, that will be slowly accepting the fact that the two of you is already over, it’s not easy especially for first love because the feeling is new and you don’t know how to deal with it yet. You will feel depress, lonely and you cannot avoid asking yourself, “why life is so unfair?” Life is not really fair and it will never be. We just have to accept things that come in our life and learn from it. It’s really hard to move on, especially if you had given everything to him. But it’s still not enough. There will be times that you want to hate yourself because you loved him or you regret the times that you did not do those things that you should have done but honestly it will not really help if you think that way. Always remember, you had your heart broken for a reason and think about that reason to help you accept that it’s the end for the both of you. Everything was already said and done so there’s no reason for you to blame yourself or the other person. And we can never turn back the time so there’s no sense for dwelling in the past anymore.
You can start moving on by crying, confiding in a friend or by giving yourself enough space to feel the absence of the person in your heart or by giving yourself time to think about what happened. Collect your thoughts and try to think about the good things the experience gave you. Never ever force yourself to forget the person because it will only make you miss him/her. Healing a broken heart takes time and will undergo a process, it’s not a shirt that can be dried by overnight so don’t rush things. If it helps to burn all the things that reminds you of the person, go and burn it. Just always think that someone much better will come and will make you happy again, just be patient, have faith and everything else will follow. Try to be as optimistic as you can because it will help you clear your mind and you can only think of positive thoughts. And always smile, as what they say, smiling is the first step of healing. After you have moved on, you need now to let go. Letting go is one of the most important thing to do, some people say that moving on is enough to recover from a heart-ache, but it’s not actually correct. You cannot say you have moved on if you haven’t let go of everything, if you will not let go, chances are you will still hope, wish or work hard to get back to the relationship and risk getting hurt again. You have to let go of the expectations, the hopes, the feelings and the longings that you have w/ the person so that you can start again when someone new comes. Again, I know letting go is very damn hard, but once you get there, you can breathe easy. Some people learn to let go after few months of moving on but some unlucky people have learn to do it after a couple of years. It will take all your effort and strength to get over everything, but trust me; it will be much harder if you do it alone, depending on someone will make things a little easy if you seek or ask for a friend some good advise or if not, just by having people around you will help ease the pains that your feeling. After you have learn to move on and let go of everything, you will find peace in your heart and you will be brave enough to face a new chapter in your life that’s waiting for you to unravel. Always remember to pray and to think God is here for you all the time. You have also to remember that you’re not alone in this world who experience that, there are other people there who had been there but they survived, so you can do it also. Be strong and be a fighter. Things will not work by themselves if you will not take a first step. Move on and let go so you will not be trapped by your past and be haunted by it.

It’s another day and I always thank God for giving me the strength to go through all the things that I need to do. Life never runs out of surprises to give us so everyday we always look forward to the new things that we will encounter. It always makes me wonder why other people wanted to end their life or at least complain when there are other huge things that we need to worry about right? Instead of thinking about our own petty problems, why don’t we think about the other people who doesn’t have a home? A food to eat? An education to achieve? Or at least a penny to buy a candy? Why don’t we think about the children sleeping in the streets or selling something just for a living? Even though we really cannot give them a big help like in money terms, we can actually help them by including them in our prayers every night. Not all of us are lucky to get what we have right now so we should always be thankful if we are able to survive another night. Even if we are not the richest or wealthiest human being on earth, we should at least be happy just to be here on earth and do things that we ought and live to do. Before thinking or complaining about what you have, please think about those who really doesn’t have anything at all.